Mr. All Alone.

"I'm all alone in the world, you must despise."-Trent Reznor

I think the days of my newfound optimism may be coming to an end. I hope I can pull back from my natural pessimisms but I'm not one whom believes the future is written in stone.

The times I've grow accustumed to are changing fast and rapidly.

The things I've healed from over the past year are re-opening slowly but surley. The sadness I've tried to kill away are coming back.

My friends are leaving and moving on from me and I feel so isolated by everything and chained down or held back, in some way.

If I could change things to my liking, I would but that's not life, it's a fantasy.

Sometimes, things are exactly what they seem to be and this time, there is no fucking other way to look at it.

My life is changing and everyone is leaving me. It's all for the better, most likely....there are bigger and better things in life than just myself and/or being around me.

I'm an independent person and perhaps being alone is the only way for me to thrive. I know romance isn't something that's meant for me but I never thought my friends and family would move on, so far away from me. I could say I feel forgotten in some sense but like I said....there are bigger and better things in life beside myself; to ask someone to give up their happiness for me, is just totally greedy and I don't have it in myself to be as so selfish.

It's like I'm always saying: I'm alone so that no one else has to be.

Joseph is moving to Pennsylvania, Mia has moved on and found someone better, Rafael is going away for college next year, My Mom is going back to school, My Dad is too busy for me and my Brother is moving out soon. There are other people whom are moving on from me....but I'll leave it at that.

I'm alone so that no one else has to be, but that's my life, how's your's?