"In my place, there were lines that I couldn't change. I was lost!"- Chris Martin
I wish I could say it seems like yesterday when I was a child but the truth is, it actually feels a lot longer than what it's been. Internally, I feel as if I've been through so many internal processes that it's all almost as if I've lived twice as long as I actually have. To be honest, I truthfully feel as if I had to cut my childhood short and grow up rather faster than most people my age have had to due to my father's departure when I was nine and my mother's undeniable hard work and stregnth since then. I feel as if it were the time between my childhood and my teenage years in which have shaped me into who I am today.
I often wonder if my childhood had been slightley different, if I'd be a better person than I am today or not. I don't like to dwell on my own past because I can't change it but sometimes I think it's good to be introspective in order to evaluate and determine where you're going in life.
If I could tell my younger self about the times and experiences I've had since those days, all I could really say at this point is that there've been many ups and downs and not to give up on his hopes and dreams. It's just really strange to look at myself back then and to look at myself now where there are so many things that have been left the same and so many things that have been stripped away.
There are days where I wish I'd done some things differently but I'm a firm believer in everything happening for a reason which leads to the grand fate of all things. The question is, what is my future self saying about the person who I am at present?
I remember at christmas fifteen years ago how happy life seemed....
....but now I wonder how I'd think of the person who I've become today.
I honestly don't know!
I wish I could say it seems like yesterday when I was a child but the truth is, it actually feels a lot longer than what it's been. Internally, I feel as if I've been through so many internal processes that it's all almost as if I've lived twice as long as I actually have. To be honest, I truthfully feel as if I had to cut my childhood short and grow up rather faster than most people my age have had to due to my father's departure when I was nine and my mother's undeniable hard work and stregnth since then. I feel as if it were the time between my childhood and my teenage years in which have shaped me into who I am today.
I often wonder if my childhood had been slightley different, if I'd be a better person than I am today or not. I don't like to dwell on my own past because I can't change it but sometimes I think it's good to be introspective in order to evaluate and determine where you're going in life.
If I could tell my younger self about the times and experiences I've had since those days, all I could really say at this point is that there've been many ups and downs and not to give up on his hopes and dreams. It's just really strange to look at myself back then and to look at myself now where there are so many things that have been left the same and so many things that have been stripped away.
There are days where I wish I'd done some things differently but I'm a firm believer in everything happening for a reason which leads to the grand fate of all things. The question is, what is my future self saying about the person who I am at present?
I remember at christmas fifteen years ago how happy life seemed....
....but now I wonder how I'd think of the person who I've become today.
I honestly don't know!
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