The Art of Not Caring.

"Now I'm older and I feel like I can let some of this anger fade, but it seems that the surface I am scratching is the pact that I have made."- Aaron Lewis

I remember watching an episode of "In Treatment" about a year and a half ago, and in this particular episode, Alex Prince Sr. was looking for some answers from Paul Weston, who was his son's therapist, about his son's possible suicide during a Navy training exercise, and eventually before long Alex Sr. came up with the argument that the only reasonable way to live life is to not search the subconscious because it defeats the purpose of having one in the first place.

His logic being that "if we stopped for every ache and pain in our lives, we'd be mentally crippled and unable to move on with the duty of living life," and he later even added that "when World War Three comes, it'll be all of the people going into all of this therapy and self analyzing who're gonna be the first to loose their heads."

I can't say that I agree 100% with his point of view but he damn sure did seem to have a point back then and the more that I think about it, he still seems to have an even stronger one now. Of course, I bring all of this up because as I'm usually doing every hour on the hour 98% of the time, is digging deep into my memories and my past.

Litterally, and very cerebrally, I think alot of things out to myself everyday in my everyday life and at the end of each day, I somehow end up with the same question in mind: What's the point to all of this? To life?

If we're supposed to live our own lives, and if that's what it all comes down to, then what's the point of making our own choices if life is gonna make it's own decisions for us?

That's a question I'm still hoping to figure out.... but in the meantime, the best I can do is simply not care because the powers of the world are all out of my hands anyway. It's becomes an art after so many years of disappointments and failure. "The Art of Failure" becomes "The Art of Not Caring."