"Everyone's so full of shit; Born and raised by hypocrites. Hearts recycled, but never saved from the cradle to the grave." - Billie Joe Armstrong
I've given up on everyone. Any and everybody in my life has seemed to have let me down in some way or another these past few months, and I've cut everyone off. I'm through.
I'm not talking to anybody right now, and I haven't for quite some time. Friends, family.... I'm tired of everyone. Nothing but a handful of disappointments.
There's a reason why I haven't hung out with anyone, or even spoken to anyone in over a month or so. I've just been in my room, and in my head for the majority of the time lately.
It seems as if everyone has some sort of agenda in their heads, or a negative comment to spew my way. And in the end result, I'm sending everyone I know a big "fuck you."
My own mother said something to me yesterday which hurt me so badly that I spent all of last night walking around in the soaking rain. And then there's my brother who's so "above it all" that it makes me sick to my stomach.
I don't even consider friends to be friends anymore. Between them all, they're either too high and irresponsible to return things that belong to me, or too whipped by their girlfriends to uphold friendships of almost a decade, or too arrogant to listen to me when I speak or express an opinion, or too jealous to be happy for me when something goes right in my life every rare now and then. So for all of that, I say screw everyone.
All of this anger and rage that I hold inside is becoming barley containable and one day soon, I just KNOW that I'm going to go the fuck off on someone. It's just a matter of days, or maybe less.
I've spoken about going off many times, with an outburst here or there that I've written about in the past. But now, I'm starting to get to my godamn boiling point. I'm fucking serious. By the end of this month, someone is going to catch a serious beat down.... and it's not going to be pretty.
The un-fading memories of all the nasty things that have been said to me in the past, and all of the spiteful actions that have had me on the bad end of them: They're all about to boil over inside and I'm about to go off. Like a ticking time bomb.
This anger that I hold inside.... it's not a force to be reckoned with.
I try to be nice, I try to be friendly, but people have always taken advantage of me and that's why I think it's best that I've cut myself off from everyone because I'm about to go off on everyone.
I'm usually in a pissy mood, but this is something else....
I've given up on everyone. Any and everybody in my life has seemed to have let me down in some way or another these past few months, and I've cut everyone off. I'm through.
I'm not talking to anybody right now, and I haven't for quite some time. Friends, family.... I'm tired of everyone. Nothing but a handful of disappointments.
There's a reason why I haven't hung out with anyone, or even spoken to anyone in over a month or so. I've just been in my room, and in my head for the majority of the time lately.
It seems as if everyone has some sort of agenda in their heads, or a negative comment to spew my way. And in the end result, I'm sending everyone I know a big "fuck you."
My own mother said something to me yesterday which hurt me so badly that I spent all of last night walking around in the soaking rain. And then there's my brother who's so "above it all" that it makes me sick to my stomach.
I don't even consider friends to be friends anymore. Between them all, they're either too high and irresponsible to return things that belong to me, or too whipped by their girlfriends to uphold friendships of almost a decade, or too arrogant to listen to me when I speak or express an opinion, or too jealous to be happy for me when something goes right in my life every rare now and then. So for all of that, I say screw everyone.
All of this anger and rage that I hold inside is becoming barley containable and one day soon, I just KNOW that I'm going to go the fuck off on someone. It's just a matter of days, or maybe less.
I've spoken about going off many times, with an outburst here or there that I've written about in the past. But now, I'm starting to get to my godamn boiling point. I'm fucking serious. By the end of this month, someone is going to catch a serious beat down.... and it's not going to be pretty.
The un-fading memories of all the nasty things that have been said to me in the past, and all of the spiteful actions that have had me on the bad end of them: They're all about to boil over inside and I'm about to go off. Like a ticking time bomb.
This anger that I hold inside.... it's not a force to be reckoned with.
I try to be nice, I try to be friendly, but people have always taken advantage of me and that's why I think it's best that I've cut myself off from everyone because I'm about to go off on everyone.
I'm usually in a pissy mood, but this is something else....
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