"With great power must also come great responsibility." - Ben Parker ("Amazing Fantasy" #15 - August, 1962)
I had a teacher once in High School named Mr. Haff and he once referred to me as a "cynic". He meant it jokingly, but I was actually flattered by it, taken by it; I knew it was true. For an amazing number of reasons, I've become a person who expects the least from the world around him, but strives for a higher expectation from people. Let me explain:
I'm the type of person who sets his watch fast by five minutes because I know that with that vital element in my life being inacurate, I'll move faster and work harder during the day. I'm the type of person who expects a relationship to fail until it's proven otherwise - in these ways, I've come not to get my hopes up too high or set all my eggs all in one basket. Call me paranoid, but it works. A great example of this would be two months ago when I turned in my "Fallen Angel/Supernatural" crossover script to J.K. Woodward and Peter David at 2011's New York Comic-Con. As you can imagine, because I'm sitting in my bed writing these words here on theis page, I never heard anything back from either of them - so, being who I am: The person I've grown to be with the thickest of skins - I wasn't disappointed at all. Hey, atleast I tried.
I think when all is said and done, though, I would describe myself as a person who is pessimistic in action but hopelessly driven by the most optimistic of ideals. If put in the situation, for example, I would be the person to tell someone that their lives would become a living Hell after marriage, only with the intent of building that person's experience factor for their own personal benefit.
Many things have triggered this particular mindset of mine into personal policy over the course of time. I suppose the heartbreak of my father leaving home when I was nine, Mia coldly rejecting me and betraying my trust when I was sixteen, Jenna's mother demonstrating her extreme racial hatred for me when I'd just turned eighteen, falling out with that conservative fundamentalist named Holly Sirois nearly a year ago, and my many, many, many run-ins with the prejudice NYPD over the course of my pre-teen-to-young-adult years have, especially, made me who I am today. But that's the law of averages for you, I guess. On average, the more you live - the more bad and game-changing experiences you'll live through (assuming you'll even live through them at all).
I expect the least, but secretly hope for - not even the most - but just a decent amount of whatever it is. That's who I am, who I've come to be.
I had a teacher once in High School named Mr. Haff and he once referred to me as a "cynic". He meant it jokingly, but I was actually flattered by it, taken by it; I knew it was true. For an amazing number of reasons, I've become a person who expects the least from the world around him, but strives for a higher expectation from people. Let me explain:
I'm the type of person who sets his watch fast by five minutes because I know that with that vital element in my life being inacurate, I'll move faster and work harder during the day. I'm the type of person who expects a relationship to fail until it's proven otherwise - in these ways, I've come not to get my hopes up too high or set all my eggs all in one basket. Call me paranoid, but it works. A great example of this would be two months ago when I turned in my "Fallen Angel/Supernatural" crossover script to J.K. Woodward and Peter David at 2011's New York Comic-Con. As you can imagine, because I'm sitting in my bed writing these words here on theis page, I never heard anything back from either of them - so, being who I am: The person I've grown to be with the thickest of skins - I wasn't disappointed at all. Hey, atleast I tried.
I think when all is said and done, though, I would describe myself as a person who is pessimistic in action but hopelessly driven by the most optimistic of ideals. If put in the situation, for example, I would be the person to tell someone that their lives would become a living Hell after marriage, only with the intent of building that person's experience factor for their own personal benefit.
Many things have triggered this particular mindset of mine into personal policy over the course of time. I suppose the heartbreak of my father leaving home when I was nine, Mia coldly rejecting me and betraying my trust when I was sixteen, Jenna's mother demonstrating her extreme racial hatred for me when I'd just turned eighteen, falling out with that conservative fundamentalist named Holly Sirois nearly a year ago, and my many, many, many run-ins with the prejudice NYPD over the course of my pre-teen-to-young-adult years have, especially, made me who I am today. But that's the law of averages for you, I guess. On average, the more you live - the more bad and game-changing experiences you'll live through (assuming you'll even live through them at all).
I expect the least, but secretly hope for - not even the most - but just a decent amount of whatever it is. That's who I am, who I've come to be.
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