"In time all things shall pass away, in time you may come back someday."-Harry Heck (The Punisher)
I. Am. Bugging. Out.
Either my mind is SERIOUSLY fucking with me or I'm seeing things.
I swear, I just saw my late cousin, Carmello.
I've been thinking about him alot latley but I could have sworn that I saw him passing by my building today.
It's possible that my mind is playing tricks on me but I SWEAR it was him.
I've always been a person with a active imagination and on top of that, I've always seemed to find symbols in places that most people don't see them but I could've sworn it was him that I saw.
My mind has fucked with me but not like this.
It still fucks with me that he's gone and I was never able to say goodbye to him. It still kills me to know that he didn't go in a peaceful way and it kills me even more just not knowing why he was actually killed.
Some questions just can't be answered, I guess. Some things can't be revealed until the time is right but if there is one thing that I DO know, it's that I really miss my cuz.
It was impossible for me to know that I was never going to see him again the last time that I saw him but I feel so fucking guilty for not being there for him when he needed me the most.
It was probably just my mind playing tricks on me.
I'm gonna cut this blog a bit short....I'm starting to cry.
I thought I was over his loss but I guess I'm not.
I miss him so fucking much.
I. Am. Bugging. Out.
Either my mind is SERIOUSLY fucking with me or I'm seeing things.
I swear, I just saw my late cousin, Carmello.
I've been thinking about him alot latley but I could have sworn that I saw him passing by my building today.
It's possible that my mind is playing tricks on me but I SWEAR it was him.
I've always been a person with a active imagination and on top of that, I've always seemed to find symbols in places that most people don't see them but I could've sworn it was him that I saw.
My mind has fucked with me but not like this.
It still fucks with me that he's gone and I was never able to say goodbye to him. It still kills me to know that he didn't go in a peaceful way and it kills me even more just not knowing why he was actually killed.
Some questions just can't be answered, I guess. Some things can't be revealed until the time is right but if there is one thing that I DO know, it's that I really miss my cuz.
It was impossible for me to know that I was never going to see him again the last time that I saw him but I feel so fucking guilty for not being there for him when he needed me the most.
It was probably just my mind playing tricks on me.
I'm gonna cut this blog a bit short....I'm starting to cry.
I thought I was over his loss but I guess I'm not.
I miss him so fucking much.
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