"There are no rules, no one to blame....that's the price you pay to play the game."-Aaron Lewis
"Well, atleast I tried.", I'll always be able to say those words about the events of today.
I always seem to get close but I never seem to actually get what it is that I'm going after.
Everything was going so well. Everything was just fine for a few days, there.
But it's like I said before (Here), Good things don't last long for me.
I kinda knew that this day was going to come sooner or later but it's probably actually for the best that this day came sooner.
I've been rejected....again. Almost.
It's okay though. I'm not holding any grudges against Mia and I'm not harboring any type of animosity towards her at all. Atleast she was honest with me.
"I like you alot and I don't want you to feel bad.", is what she said a few minutes ago as she let me down easy.
But either way, it's never a easy fall once you've been shot down from a cloud. No matter how easy you'd like it to be.
It was good while it lasted....the journey, that is.
Hell, it was a much better and much, much, much more fun ride with Mia than the one I took with Marlene all those years ago.
I guess it's because I'm older now and I don't take things like these as badly as I used to that I'm dealing with this letdown so well.
And sure, It stings a bit to know that I'll never be with her, no matter how hard I try, no matter how much I want her or even how many times I'll dream of her in my dreams but hey, in the end, it all happens for a reason.
Some things have to be lived to be fully understood, even if we don't see the logic in it at times like these, it is and always will remain the truth.
I mean, atleast I didn't let my guard down. Atleast I didn't let her get close enough to hurt me.
But what can I do?
I tried. This is it. This was the final straw today, I think....this might've been the end of anything I could ever possibly hope for between Mia and I.
Atleast, I tried.
Atleast, I didn't give up.
Atleast, I did what I could.
It's just too bad....
"Well, atleast I tried.", I'll always be able to say those words about the events of today.
I always seem to get close but I never seem to actually get what it is that I'm going after.
Everything was going so well. Everything was just fine for a few days, there.
But it's like I said before (Here), Good things don't last long for me.
I kinda knew that this day was going to come sooner or later but it's probably actually for the best that this day came sooner.
I've been rejected....again. Almost.
It's okay though. I'm not holding any grudges against Mia and I'm not harboring any type of animosity towards her at all. Atleast she was honest with me.
"I like you alot and I don't want you to feel bad.", is what she said a few minutes ago as she let me down easy.
But either way, it's never a easy fall once you've been shot down from a cloud. No matter how easy you'd like it to be.
It was good while it lasted....the journey, that is.
Hell, it was a much better and much, much, much more fun ride with Mia than the one I took with Marlene all those years ago.
I guess it's because I'm older now and I don't take things like these as badly as I used to that I'm dealing with this letdown so well.
And sure, It stings a bit to know that I'll never be with her, no matter how hard I try, no matter how much I want her or even how many times I'll dream of her in my dreams but hey, in the end, it all happens for a reason.
Some things have to be lived to be fully understood, even if we don't see the logic in it at times like these, it is and always will remain the truth.
I mean, atleast I didn't let my guard down. Atleast I didn't let her get close enough to hurt me.
But what can I do?
I tried. This is it. This was the final straw today, I think....this might've been the end of anything I could ever possibly hope for between Mia and I.
Atleast, I tried.
Atleast, I didn't give up.
Atleast, I did what I could.
It's just too bad....
I would've given her the world.
We'll see how everything turns out on Wednsday although I kinda took the hint today.
PS: I won the argument at school today. I beat those creeps. I'm transferring out pretty soon.
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