"If there's nothing to know then there's nothing to say."-Joseph Ferrante
I've always been one to see irony in alot of things but since I wrote about that Irony-filled day last Tuesday, something has been kinda bugging me but I can't judge if it's a good or bad thing.
One of the most ironic things happened to me the other day when I was listening to "Capital G" and noticed that the lyric "There's alot of me inside you, maybe your afraid to see." was also something that I heard from my Dad a very long time ago.
I'm not sure if it's just a coincidence or if it's something bigger than that but the one thing that I do know is that it's creeping me out!
I don't know if that's such a bad thing, to have alot of my father's traits inside of me but the thing is, it depends on which side of my Dad we're talking about here.
I mean, sure it's not so bad to be as wise as my Dad but then again it's not so good to Drink all day either.
Sure, it's fantastic to be devoted to your family but on the other hand, it's not so fantastic to let your past darken your life and push you away from the people you care about.
I'm a little freaked out by the whole thing because if there is anyone who I see has the most of my Dad inside of them, it's DEFINATLEY my Brother.
Both of them are only concerned about what benefits themselves rather than what's best for everyone else or what's best for the world around them and although I try time and time again to show the both of them a (In my opinion.) better way, my efforts seem to be useless.
I'm not like either of my Parents or anyone in my ENTIRE family, come to think of it. Sure, I look like my Mom and Dad but when all is said and done, I'm the only one who brings something new to the table.
I'm the only one to ever stay and tangle it out with life's obsticles while the rest of them just sit back, relax and let the events of their lives run them.
I'm the only one whose ever seen things the way that I have.
Most importantly, I'm the only one who's ever stood his ground and faced the facts while the rest of them have always ran and hid away from what they know in their heart of hearts is true.
I just don't understand it. How can people go day to day running in the self-destructive routines that will only destroy them when all is said and done.
I mean, my words and actions can only go so far.
No matter how much I try to stop them, some people will always do what they want to. It's a sad-but-realistic fact that I've come to accept.
It's amazing, how far this has gone but the questions still remain: Am I destined to follow in my Father's footsteps?
Am I destined to go down the path that he's already taken?
Am I destined to repeat history?
I guess these things will be answered in time but for now, I'm gonna continue on with life just the way I've always done....facing facts, seeing the world the way I see it, trying to be the best friend that I can possibly be and even more importantly, trying to be the best MAN that I can be.
Hopfully, I won't let my friends or myself down because in the end....destiny wins.
The question is, Am I destined to repeat the past?
Is it on me to repent my father's sins?
I've always been one to see irony in alot of things but since I wrote about that Irony-filled day last Tuesday, something has been kinda bugging me but I can't judge if it's a good or bad thing.
One of the most ironic things happened to me the other day when I was listening to "Capital G" and noticed that the lyric "There's alot of me inside you, maybe your afraid to see." was also something that I heard from my Dad a very long time ago.
I'm not sure if it's just a coincidence or if it's something bigger than that but the one thing that I do know is that it's creeping me out!
I don't know if that's such a bad thing, to have alot of my father's traits inside of me but the thing is, it depends on which side of my Dad we're talking about here.
I mean, sure it's not so bad to be as wise as my Dad but then again it's not so good to Drink all day either.
Sure, it's fantastic to be devoted to your family but on the other hand, it's not so fantastic to let your past darken your life and push you away from the people you care about.
I'm a little freaked out by the whole thing because if there is anyone who I see has the most of my Dad inside of them, it's DEFINATLEY my Brother.
Both of them are only concerned about what benefits themselves rather than what's best for everyone else or what's best for the world around them and although I try time and time again to show the both of them a (In my opinion.) better way, my efforts seem to be useless.
I'm not like either of my Parents or anyone in my ENTIRE family, come to think of it. Sure, I look like my Mom and Dad but when all is said and done, I'm the only one who brings something new to the table.
I'm the only one to ever stay and tangle it out with life's obsticles while the rest of them just sit back, relax and let the events of their lives run them.
I'm the only one whose ever seen things the way that I have.
Most importantly, I'm the only one who's ever stood his ground and faced the facts while the rest of them have always ran and hid away from what they know in their heart of hearts is true.
I just don't understand it. How can people go day to day running in the self-destructive routines that will only destroy them when all is said and done.
I mean, my words and actions can only go so far.
No matter how much I try to stop them, some people will always do what they want to. It's a sad-but-realistic fact that I've come to accept.
It's amazing, how far this has gone but the questions still remain: Am I destined to follow in my Father's footsteps?
Am I destined to go down the path that he's already taken?
Am I destined to repeat history?
I guess these things will be answered in time but for now, I'm gonna continue on with life just the way I've always done....facing facts, seeing the world the way I see it, trying to be the best friend that I can possibly be and even more importantly, trying to be the best MAN that I can be.
Hopfully, I won't let my friends or myself down because in the end....destiny wins.
The question is, Am I destined to repeat the past?
Is it on me to repent my father's sins?
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