"It's on you to make me realize. It's on you to make me see the light."-Trent Reznor
Slowly but surley. Inevitabley. Sooner or later....all people, everyone, everywhere has to face facts.
I've never been one to hide from the truth and I never will but sometimes, I feel the responsiblity to show or atleast help people find the best within themselves.
This is one of those times.
I've finally figured it all out. I finally know what's been keeping Mia and I apart....she worries too much.
Last night, after spending the day with her, we had a VERY long talk (Eight hours) when we got home and I think it helped us both to figure things out.
You see, the thing is, she feels the need to "Protect" me from herself but, in a way....that's a load of shit. It's the truth.
I can see straight through her, just like I've always been able to.
She WANTS to act like a badass but she's far from it. She WANTS to be the rebellious girl but she's FAR, FAR, FAR from it.
Most of all, she wants to be a lost cause but she's far from it.
Subconsciously, I think she wants to be alone and I can't and won't let her.
Her mind is clouded and I'm her clearity.
Here's the thing, She's pulled the shades over the eyes of countless people in the past but she's never been able to pull them over mine for some reason or another....even she's admitted it.
The truth is, I can see who she trully is even if nobody else can.
She's a good person and she's starting to realize it. All my efforts haven't been for nothing.
A little more time and a little more work....I'll get what I'm after.
It hasn't been easy so far and I don't exspect it to be easy in the future but that's the point to life, you work through the hard times with uncertainty and come out bigger, stronger than you were before.
She said to me that she didn't want to hurt me if things didn't work out because I'm special to her but isn't that my choice to make? That's my descision to make and nobody else's. NOBODY.
I'm willing to take that risk for my own personal reasons.
There are certain things about me that FEW if not anyone would be able to understand about me.
This is just something that I have to do. This is just something that I have to see through to the end....if there ever is a end.
My point is, you'll never know until you try and even if it doesn't work out, atleast you can honestly say that you gave it a shot. Atleast you can say that you tried.
I feel that in time, she'll see my point. In time, she'll come through.
Everyone has a different opinion on this situation of mine but all will be said and done soon.
Some think, I should end both my feelings for her (Which is impossible.) and my friendship with her.
And then there are others who are more optimistic on the situation, who believe that I should do what I've always done and don't give up on her.
I've thought about it from both points of view and I've come to my own conclusions.
This is my journey to live.
In the words of my Grandfather and Father, "A man has to go his own way."
Either way, I'm gonna continue my fight and journey with/for Mia and hopefully everything will be made clear.
This is something that I have to do, even if no one else understands.
All I need is ONE chance....
Slowly but surley. Inevitabley. Sooner or later....all people, everyone, everywhere has to face facts.
I've never been one to hide from the truth and I never will but sometimes, I feel the responsiblity to show or atleast help people find the best within themselves.
This is one of those times.
I've finally figured it all out. I finally know what's been keeping Mia and I apart....she worries too much.
Last night, after spending the day with her, we had a VERY long talk (Eight hours) when we got home and I think it helped us both to figure things out.
You see, the thing is, she feels the need to "Protect" me from herself but, in a way....that's a load of shit. It's the truth.
I can see straight through her, just like I've always been able to.
She WANTS to act like a badass but she's far from it. She WANTS to be the rebellious girl but she's FAR, FAR, FAR from it.
Most of all, she wants to be a lost cause but she's far from it.
Subconsciously, I think she wants to be alone and I can't and won't let her.
Her mind is clouded and I'm her clearity.
Here's the thing, She's pulled the shades over the eyes of countless people in the past but she's never been able to pull them over mine for some reason or another....even she's admitted it.
The truth is, I can see who she trully is even if nobody else can.
She's a good person and she's starting to realize it. All my efforts haven't been for nothing.
A little more time and a little more work....I'll get what I'm after.
It hasn't been easy so far and I don't exspect it to be easy in the future but that's the point to life, you work through the hard times with uncertainty and come out bigger, stronger than you were before.
She said to me that she didn't want to hurt me if things didn't work out because I'm special to her but isn't that my choice to make? That's my descision to make and nobody else's. NOBODY.
I'm willing to take that risk for my own personal reasons.
There are certain things about me that FEW if not anyone would be able to understand about me.
This is just something that I have to do. This is just something that I have to see through to the end....if there ever is a end.
My point is, you'll never know until you try and even if it doesn't work out, atleast you can honestly say that you gave it a shot. Atleast you can say that you tried.
I feel that in time, she'll see my point. In time, she'll come through.
Everyone has a different opinion on this situation of mine but all will be said and done soon.
Some think, I should end both my feelings for her (Which is impossible.) and my friendship with her.
And then there are others who are more optimistic on the situation, who believe that I should do what I've always done and don't give up on her.
I've thought about it from both points of view and I've come to my own conclusions.
This is my journey to live.
In the words of my Grandfather and Father, "A man has to go his own way."
Either way, I'm gonna continue my fight and journey with/for Mia and hopefully everything will be made clear.
This is something that I have to do, even if no one else understands.
All I need is ONE chance....
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