Aspirations.

"Nobody ever changed the world by just, standing around."-Cyclops (Uncanny X-Men-394, 2001)

I've got many ambitions and goals. Some, I've been working towards for quite some time now. Others, I've just recently come to aquire.

With still juggling these goals and doing the things that I feel I have to do for some reason or another, it gets a little tiring sometimes.

Some days, tiring to the point where I get the bits of sleep that I usually should get on the daily basis anyway.

But even so, I'm never too tired to write a story for some reason.

Some days, I'll just sit there at my desk and write, page after page after page after page and I won't stop until after about eight or nine hours of writing straight.

My Mom always called it a talent but It's just "Something I do, naturally.", as I've always told anyone who asked.

It never gets annoying for me, it never gets tiring and it never seems to get boring! I just come home some days and well....write.

I never understood how I could write my own stories and still come up with new ideas even after I've been writing for COUNTLESS hours.

It's a obsession, it really is. Some days, I don't even sleep at night, I just write or in some cases (Like I've previously stated in a past blog.) I just think without sleeping.

Writing is who I am. It's in my blood. It's what I do.

I do other things but writing is and always has been my first love.

I don't write because I want too, I write because I have to.

I swear, if I go a day without atleast writing seven pages, I tend to become grumpy or even pissed for no reason.

EVERY SECOND of every day, either I'm thinking up a new story to write, I'm writing a new story or I'm contemplating new ideas to use in a story that I've already written or want to write.

I've always been pretty fascinated with creating "Something new."

It's so hard to exsplain how much I love doing it.

I mean, I've been writing since the fourth grade. I began with writing fifteen to twenty page stories at the age of Nine.

I created my own Comic Book characters (Some of you know what I'm talking about.) in the sixth grade, at the age of Eleven.

The ideas just keep popping into my head. Everything I see, gives me a new idea. I can't stop them and I actually don't want to. =]

I'm stopping at NOTHING to get my characters out there and into the world.

One of these days, all my motives will be clear and all my drive and ambition will be seen.

The Blue folder. Everyone knows what it is. Everyone knows what it means to me.

For years, I've carried all of my characters and details of my comic book in my "Blue Folder."

It's my life's work. It's everything to me, both professionally and personally. To think that I've had my work contained in this folder since the beginning of my journey into the writing industry makes me quite proud.

It's so symbolic of how in some ways, I'm the same little kid that had no clue that he was creating something so new and original. And then it's cool to see how much I've perfected my craft since then, all those years back.

I know that I have something here. I can feel it.

My intuision has gotten me this far. I've still got a way to go but even so, I can just feel it in my bones that I as well as coutless others will see just what's been going on inside my head all these years.

Sooner or later, the world will see just what I've been working on day in and day out for almost six years straight.

I'm still working on it, yeah. I've still got a ways to go with it, yeah. But I'm not just standing around waiting for a miracle to come my way. I'm out there, working to get my dream accomplished. I'm not just standing around.

This is what I'm working for. Few people can understand the drive in me to get this one thing complete....but it's my dream. I HAVE to get it out there in some way.

It's sometimes hard not to be ruthless but I've never crossed that line and I never will.

Ruthless isn't the anwaser, it's not my way....But I'm damn sure relentless.

It's a bittersweet thing, it's a hard quality for me to keep up with.

To NEVER take no for an answer is damn near impossible....but It's worked pretty well for me so far.

And sure, I'm still aspiring. But who isn't?


In some way or form, nobody is all professional. In some way, I as well as countless others will always be aspiring.

But in any case, I know my dream will come true.
NOTHING. NOTHING. NOTHING can or will stop me from accomplishing this goal or any goal for that matter.

Some have tried to put my dream down. Some have called it unrealistic. Some have called this dream foolish but even so, I never cared about the thoughts of others and I never will.

One of  the most important things I've ever learned is that, everyone is not going to like what you have to say.
Everyone is not going to like what you plan to do and that's all fine by me because the only thing that matters is that I don't quit.

Nothing really can discourage me, although some would just simply call me arrogant (Especially, my Mom and Teachers.), I just call myself visionary.

It takes discipline but I've found it in myself for years to never give up on something that I believe in, even when others, if not, all are against me.

Most of the time, I can see the big picture that few, if not, anyone else can see and that plays a big part in my will and belief system.

But the fact still remains that time after time, whether it was a competition to get to the next grade in school or if it was just a foot-race down the street, I've never given up on any goal.

THIS DREAM IS NO DIFFERENT.