Accessories and Impliments.

"The echoes in my eyes of all they used to see. Burning down the world, the ashes and debri. All that's left of me....Non-Entity."-Trent Reznor

A day of deeper thought. A day of heavy descisions. A day of realizations.

I've come to find myself in a state of neutrallity. Clearity and contemplation have been my main focuses this past year. I've done alot and I've sacrificed much more than I ever have had to this past year.

It's been a frustrating time these past several months but now, I'm back and ready to face the day. I've been in some shitty situations before and I've done some things that have raised quite a few eyebrows and shed many tears over these past couple of years but I'm back to where I want to be again. In a happier place. Everything has come full-circle back to the way it all should've been.

I'm proud to say that I never lost the sight of the things that I believe are right and wrong. I have my opinions and I motivate and work towards and around them. Deeply conscious, I've gone through lots of things and have come to this moment where every single descision and moment in my entire past has brought me.

There are lots of things that I've done and lots of things that I still need to do. Sure, things went my way for about two weeks but it's time to come back down from the cloud I was on. It's time to come back to reality now.

Life was a mess for a while there. Now, it's time to clean it all up. I'm still sticking to my descisions and principals, however, a few things need to be changed and tweaked around a bit.

I've found the way out of my lonliness, I've found a way to decrease my anger, I've found a way out of my head once before....I'm gonna do it again.

There are so many different chapters in my life that few get to see. Each and every one has to be re-dealt with now.

My Friends, My Family, Mia, My Goals, My Plans, My point of view....that's all my strength. That's everything I've got. That's everything I need.

That's all my motivation, that's all my determination, those are my only cares in the entire universe. Everything else is secondary. Everything else is irrelevant.

This is a new consciousness.

This is a new and improved sensibility.

This is a new me and the old me at the same time.

This is the first day of the rest of my life.

My point of view means everything to me. It's the way I see everything, the world around me, the thoughts inside of me, the questions I ask, the things I do, the descisions I make....EVERYTHING. It's what keeps me going inside and out and it's what makes me, well, me.

Is it a Accessory of my coming success or is it a Implement of my coming destruction?

Only time will tell.