A Day Gone.

"Don't waste my motherfucking time."-Vincent Hanna (Heat)

I don't know why but certain people just seem to have a knack for wasting MY GODDAMN TIME!

I went to two interviews today. One to get into a new school. One for a Job.

The way this day turned out is symbolic enough for both you and I.

Let's see, I woke up, I got in the shower, Got dressed, the usual. I had a bad feeling all week about today and as usual, I was proven right in this sense.

I told my Mom all goddamn week about this interview today and how much I didn't want to go but nooooooooo....she has to do everything her way and not listen to me about MY descisions.  

So anyway, My Brother and I make it there to his old school and I go and begin this test at 12:00 PM.

I'm taking the test, which I did pass and then they took me into this room and gave me a one on one interview, which I also passed and then the woman leaves out for five minutes, comes back and tells me I can go back home for now because in order for me to attend their program I had to be seventeen by June.

At this point, I'm like....PISSED! You see, one thing about me is, I don't like to waste time and I don't like to have my time wasted, not even by my Friends, Family or even Mia.

I DO NOT LIKE IT.

Now when I get out, it's beginning to get dark, the sun is setting. Ironic, not only has the sun had it's day but I felt like I did too.

So, I run over to Allerton Avenue to see about a Job and I would have had it if that damn test hadn't made me late. The guy gave the job to someone else because I haden't shown up on time. I was busy taking that FUCKING TEST and INTERVIEW.

AT THIS POINT! I'M PISSED! I'M BEYOND PISSED! I mean, PISSED!

So, I go to the train station, swiped my card and the damn thing says there is no more money on it. I'm like five and a half miles away from home, near my Mia's house Ironically and I know she was at school so I didn't even bother trying to go get her. (Besides, I was in NO mood for her Dad.)

So, like I know your thinking, I had to walk home.

I swear, someone must've had it out for me today.

I walked for five miles. FIVE MILES back home.

So, I get home at 4:15 PM, tired, annoyed, pissed, justified for my motives not to go in the first place.

The thing that kills me is, I could've stayed at home, been warm and cozy and finished my scripts.

When I got home, I ironically didn't even show my anger because I was soooo pissed inside.

I told my Mom, "This is the what happens when you don't listen to me." and my Brother was cracking up like a maniac after I told him about my day while I walked him to work when I got back but I mean, it's funny and sad at the same time.

Funny because it proves that I'm capable of taking care of my own affairs better than even my own Parents or anyone else for that matter can, at this point in my life.

Sad because when my time is wasted like this, especially when I don't want to do something for my own reasons, things end up badly not just for me but for everyone else too and it's bittersweet because I'm usually proven right about these bad situations.

I mean, if everyone would just leave me the hell alone, shut up and let me make my descisions for myself the way I see fit....nobody's time would be wasted, nobody would have to be bothered with bullshit like this and everyone would be okay.

The easiest thing to do is to leave someone alone, why can't people just do that for me?

I don't interfere in other's affairs unless I'm asked, I exspect the same.

Everyone has to go there own way in life. I'm just trying to go mine....why is that so hard to understand for some?