Self-evaluation in a Sleepless night.

"Compromise, that's nothing new to you."-Bono

I've had quite a week. I turned seventeen, got a crap load of presents and I've just mostly been taking it slow this past week.

I feel that, when my summer is all over and I go back to school on the 8th, I'm gonna lose this newfound happy state and I'll just return to my old self. It's been one hell of a year, from last August to now. I've been through a lot. A whole lot.

It hasn't been as hectic these past several weeks as it has been the past four years but I think I know just how I'm going to end up as this year comes to an end. It's so incredible, just how fast this year has come and (is almost) gone.

I mean, there are only four more months left in the year and I feel as if I've drastically changed in a lot of ways but no matter what, I'm always going to have the same thought processes and point of view, not just about life but of myself and the things that I do and will do.

Who's to say that, in a year, let alone a decade from now, I'll bee exactly the same or more or less, a completley different person.

If turning seventeen has shown me anything these past few days, it's that I'm on a road with and without a destination.

My life used to seem so planned out and now, it's like I'm going nowhere and everywhere all at once.

I can't exsplain where my self-evaluating thoughts have come from but they're useful and scary all at once.

Who will I be?

Where is my life going?

Who am I becoming?

Am I good or bad?

These are all questions which we all ask ourselves but I don't think many are realistic when they answer themselves.

I believe in adaptability without losing the person whom you are, I just wonder if I'll stand to last the test of time or not. 

I guess I'll see in time.