Missing in a maze.

"All have washed away."-Trent Reznor

It wasn't all that bad of a day, today. I spent most of my time in school, reading the lastest Hellblazer and G.I.Joe comic books. My mom called here to my grandparents house and told me that a college in Connecticut was trying to get a hold of me because they were interested in my writing and at my lunch period, I got two more compliments about a essay I'd written and about my script that I entered in last months's contest on supernaturalfanwiki.wetpaint.com.

So, it hasn't been a bad day at all really, other than the fact that I have to have two power point presentations and a report done by next monday.

I have a really important predictor exam that I'm required to take all day tomorrow, and I'm not too excited about that either but I can fight through it.

On another hand, I decided to stop talking to Solange once again. I got so fed up with the mixed messages and excuses that she continuously gave me, that I couldn't deal with it any longer. It's not the end of the world but it's not something to jump around about either because I really liked her and unfortunatley, I began to see too many comparisons and similarities between Solange and Mia (which is never good in any case) so I dodged the bullet, which would've been another heartbreak. [It turns out the hero didn't get the girl after all, Crystal!]

I had a really funny encounter with a school-mate of mine today. Come to think of it, I was still laughing on the crowded bus (I despise the MTA) as I was coming home.

So anyway, I planned to get my lunch from the lunch room and return to Mr. Mendoza's class (as I usually do on my lunch period) but today, I walked straight into one of the funniest scenarios of my life instead. I stuck my hand out to get a tray of food and I didn't notice that the kid next to me was going after the tray also, and when we both pulled for it at the same time, he turned around to me and [I guess he saw how tall I am] so he started jokingly saying "There's no problem! There's no problem! Just take it! Just take it!" as if I was holding him up with a gun or something. He had his hands in the air out of defeat and everything and it was the funniest thing ever!

I came up with a great story this morning while I was in math class and the only thing I'll say is that it's the type of story that made the old black and white films of the thirties and forties so great. It has a good balance of duality, thinking and originality to it and I can't wait to get started with writing it. It's the type of story that's relatable yet questionable in it's intent. It's a great plot and it basically has a lot to do with beliefs and point of view. I can already see that it's becoming a character-driven story but that's all I'll say for now.

The thing is, even through all of this moderate news of my day, I still feel as lonely as ever. It's my nature I guess. Some days, I feel so different than the way I think, it kills me, but the points that I'm trying to make all get lost in between my lonliness and my apathy. Sometimes, it's as if the things I want to do aren't all that hard to obtain but I still can't get them for some reason or another. My hopes and myself are the same as trying to put two magnets together....they'll always repel each other.

Today has been a better day than most, I'll say that but the realistic question I unfortunatley have to ask myself is: How long will it last?