"Dust to dust. Ashes in your hair reminds me what it feels like, and I won't feel again."-Trent Reznor
I should be celebrating my victories. I passed my G.E.D, I got out of school practically and I'm on the road to realizing my dream of becoming a Comic Book Writer, but still, I feel a emptiness inside that I can't fill. It's a ever deep and dark void which I find myself lost in.
Only one person was ever able to fill that void and that was Mia, but now she's gone from my life and she's moved on with her's. I'm moving on with my life as well but my heart still longs for a time that has come to pass and won't come again.
The void within my heart cries through me every second of every single day; I feel like nobody understands me or the things that I'm going through in my life.
I feel almost as if I'm stumbling on a endlessly bleak, opaque road all alone and abandonned. Some days, I swear I don't know the difference between my rights and wrongs. It's all a big blur at times but still, I manage to push through and find a small glare of hope at the end of the day.
For me, living life is like shooting through a wall with a revolver and hoping that the bullet hits the bullseye on the other side.
I wish that some parts of my life had turned out differently but one small divergance or change would've created a butterfly effect opposing my very existance and the person who I've become.
"The person I've become." Who have I become?
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