Becoming.

"I'm turning my head out to see what I'm all about."-Chris Martin

I have a college interview tomorrow morning upstate. Once again, my scripts have paid off and this time, the College of Westchester wants to take a look at what I have to offer them.

I'm not too happy about dedicating another four years of my life to education but I'd have more to lose if I didn't go.

I'm most likely going to go away for college and I feel a bit nervous about it and liberated at the same time.

This college business has me all over the place too; tomorrow, I have to make my way upstate to White Plains and I've already applied to NYFA for a grant to attend their school finally. Overall, I have a feeling that I'll get accepted to both schools.

I've outgrown my life here in New York and I'm ready to get the hell out of dodge as fast as possible. I always planned on showing everyone what's what and this is my golden oppurtunity to do so.

If this all goes through, I'd take it as a sign that the way I've chosen to do things over the past four years were the right way to go and overall, I'd have done myself a great deed by doing my own bidding and leaving High School in the first place and following my heart instead of everyone else's advice.

I feel as much as I know, and right now I know that the world is opening up to me, giving my dreams and aspirations a door to walk through out of my head and into the realm of reality (If there is such a thing, that is).

The only thing to really think about at this stage is if these next four years will bloom something new or reapeat history like my past for years did. Personally, I'm hoping for the former opposed to the latter.

I'm leaving things behind, some good and some bad, but I feel as if I have to do this in order to get to the places where I want to go. In order to do the things that I want to do, I have to do some things that I don't really want to. This is my chance to do things that most people don't get to do and I'm gonna take my shot at it. That's like myself anyway; when I have a shot, I take it.

Being a perfectionist and oppurtunist isn't so bad, I guess, but that's the person who I am.