"And once you've sung, Charlie my boy, you're gonna take you're place on that long grey line of American manhood. And then you will be through."- Lt. Col. Frank Slade
It's been an interesting day for me. Interesting, to say the least. Between going to my rehearsal for my graduation tomorrow, dealing with the dawn of a new chapter of my life soon to begin, avoiding Mia and my drummed up bad feelings for our history together all day at the rehearsal, and pondering the previous (and indeed worst) four years of my life in High School, I've come to see that it's all just setting itself up for something remarkable tomorrow.
I don't get nervous often; it's something that I've learned how to somewhat control especially, but as I inch closer to the unknown future of mine, I can't help but to be a bit shaky at the idea of ending mandatory schooling and finally entering the legal adult life. But even still, I have a feeling that I'll be just fine.
And when I think of all of the people who didn't think I'd make it out of High School at all, or even more so, the ones who didn't think I'd make it out on time, I can't help but to laugh at their voices in my conscience since I've prooved them all wrong in very big ways this past year by doing my own thing and making my own descisions, even if they weren't always the popular choices to make.
The one vital thing that I can't stop thinking about is about all of the things that I've journeyed through in four years and how much I've actually changed since I was fourteen years old.
The question that a few friends and family members have asked me the most has been whether or not I regret anything about the descisions I've made during my time in High School and I honestly have to say that I really don't have any regrets at all because I prooved myself right to have followed my heart and left traditional High School in search of my own alternate path that prooved to be fruitful for personal reasons.
Don't get me wrong though, there were alot of things that were out of my control in the past that I actually do wish had turned out differently like my choice to attend Lehman High School in general, not being more outgoing with Mia when I had the chance, and having to deal with my former High School for as long as I actually did.
In any case, I can't wait for tomorrow to come.
It's been an interesting day for me. Interesting, to say the least. Between going to my rehearsal for my graduation tomorrow, dealing with the dawn of a new chapter of my life soon to begin, avoiding Mia and my drummed up bad feelings for our history together all day at the rehearsal, and pondering the previous (and indeed worst) four years of my life in High School, I've come to see that it's all just setting itself up for something remarkable tomorrow.
I don't get nervous often; it's something that I've learned how to somewhat control especially, but as I inch closer to the unknown future of mine, I can't help but to be a bit shaky at the idea of ending mandatory schooling and finally entering the legal adult life. But even still, I have a feeling that I'll be just fine.
And when I think of all of the people who didn't think I'd make it out of High School at all, or even more so, the ones who didn't think I'd make it out on time, I can't help but to laugh at their voices in my conscience since I've prooved them all wrong in very big ways this past year by doing my own thing and making my own descisions, even if they weren't always the popular choices to make.
The one vital thing that I can't stop thinking about is about all of the things that I've journeyed through in four years and how much I've actually changed since I was fourteen years old.
The question that a few friends and family members have asked me the most has been whether or not I regret anything about the descisions I've made during my time in High School and I honestly have to say that I really don't have any regrets at all because I prooved myself right to have followed my heart and left traditional High School in search of my own alternate path that prooved to be fruitful for personal reasons.
Don't get me wrong though, there were alot of things that were out of my control in the past that I actually do wish had turned out differently like my choice to attend Lehman High School in general, not being more outgoing with Mia when I had the chance, and having to deal with my former High School for as long as I actually did.
In any case, I can't wait for tomorrow to come.
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