"I can hear your call underneath it all."-Trent Reznor
I try to help people as much as I can but latley, I've been feeling like there is nothing I can do for anyone anymore.
I give people advice, they end up doing what they want to do.
I help people to see things clearly, they choose to run in the same circles.
I give people a helping hand, they fall back into their (In my opinion.) bad habits.
And I know that I can't change the world, let alone change people's descisions but I don't understand why
I'm constanly asked for help, when no one is going to listen to me.
I'm sick and tired of always picking everyone up and then they fall back down again. It turns into a game after a while.
"I pick you up, you purposly fall back down."
There are times when I actually believe that certain people in my life have been sent here just test my patience.
Sure, I laugh at it but It's not out of sense of humor that I do it....It's because I simply can't get my head around how some people are just waiting to fuck up, subconsciously.
I feel both exhausted and awake at the same time, these days.
Exhausted, because it gets hard for me to be there for each and every person as time goes on and I know that I can't do it sometimes.
Awake, because I feel the obligation to help everyone that I possibly can until the day that I croke.
It just seems to get harder and harder and harder for me as time passes by.
I try to stay out of everyone's business but in some way or another, I always find myself drowning in their sorrows....I'm greedy if I don't and I'm unrealistic if I do. I just feel like there is no way for me to win at times.
There are times that I often feel like no matter what I say, do or try to do, things seem to get worse than they were before.
Sometimes, It's harder than other times but I keep on going for some reason or another. It's who I am, I guess.
I just can't watch as people suffer or fall on hard times....I just can't do it. Some say, that makes me a good person. Some say, that makes me a fool.
I don't know anymore. I just feel so tired.
Tired of everything. Problems, complaints, what's satisfactory, what's not satisfactory, what's acceptable, what's not acceptable.
It'll all drive you nuts eventually. I'm just trying to fight it away though....one day at a time.
But in the end, I'm no Superman. Although some make me out to be.
I try to help people as much as I can but latley, I've been feeling like there is nothing I can do for anyone anymore.
I give people advice, they end up doing what they want to do.
I help people to see things clearly, they choose to run in the same circles.
I give people a helping hand, they fall back into their (In my opinion.) bad habits.
And I know that I can't change the world, let alone change people's descisions but I don't understand why
I'm constanly asked for help, when no one is going to listen to me.
I'm sick and tired of always picking everyone up and then they fall back down again. It turns into a game after a while.
"I pick you up, you purposly fall back down."
There are times when I actually believe that certain people in my life have been sent here just test my patience.
Sure, I laugh at it but It's not out of sense of humor that I do it....It's because I simply can't get my head around how some people are just waiting to fuck up, subconsciously.
I feel both exhausted and awake at the same time, these days.
Exhausted, because it gets hard for me to be there for each and every person as time goes on and I know that I can't do it sometimes.
Awake, because I feel the obligation to help everyone that I possibly can until the day that I croke.
It just seems to get harder and harder and harder for me as time passes by.
I try to stay out of everyone's business but in some way or another, I always find myself drowning in their sorrows....I'm greedy if I don't and I'm unrealistic if I do. I just feel like there is no way for me to win at times.
There are times that I often feel like no matter what I say, do or try to do, things seem to get worse than they were before.
Sometimes, It's harder than other times but I keep on going for some reason or another. It's who I am, I guess.
I just can't watch as people suffer or fall on hard times....I just can't do it. Some say, that makes me a good person. Some say, that makes me a fool.
I don't know anymore. I just feel so tired.
Tired of everything. Problems, complaints, what's satisfactory, what's not satisfactory, what's acceptable, what's not acceptable.
It'll all drive you nuts eventually. I'm just trying to fight it away though....one day at a time.
But in the end, I'm no Superman. Although some make me out to be.
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