"Is there hope for me after all is said and done?"-Trent Reznor
This has been a very stressful year for me.
My Mom's stroke, My Cousin's death, Running after Mia, Dealing with School, Continuing my journey into the Comic Book industry, Adapting to the stress and frustration of getting older and now I've got this constant thought in my mind about my place in the future.
As you can see, this year has been a packed year for me.
I'm SO tired but in my mind, I know that's not an escuse to ignore my duties. My duties as a friend, son, grandson, brother and as a aspiring writer.
If only everyone else could see things the exact same way that I see them, perhaps they'd know just how hard I've been working to make my dreams and hopes become realities.
I'm not trying to be a crybaby here but the truth is, It's hard work trying to do a billion things all at once, especially when few, if not no one gives you any credit for it.
If I eliminate one problem from my list, a new one ALWAYS takes it's place and it's only a few people that seems to understand what I'm talking about, let alone, what I'm going through.
I'm facing problems that not even some adults have to face.
I'm not one to complain but I feel like I just have to vent a little bit. This is my way of venting my frustration. I'm just SO goddamn tired. I'm exhausted and no one understands.
It feels like nobody is listening to me at times.
I could go on and on and on but sometimes it just feels like I'm not getting anywhere or even going anywhere, no matter how much I try to.
I'm trying to go ONE place but everyone is always demanding something from me and it's never good enough....even after they get what they want.
They always want more and more and more and more and more.
It's getting to the point where I don't have much else to give....and that's not good.
I need time to rest but there simply isn't any time to just sit back and relax. I'm always up, doing something.
I'm always in a rush. I always have to be somewhere doing something.
And I just want to sit back and take it slow for a while.
I try to do the best that I can but even when it feels like I've done enough, someone, somewhere ALWAYS wants more from me.
They pick and pick and pick until I have nothing else for them to pick from.
There are just some days, where I don't even want to wake up in the morning.
I'm frustrated, exhausted and simply tired but I'm going to keep on.
I have to keep going on. There are things that I just have to do, not just for myself but for the people that I love and also for the things that I'm hoping to accomplish.
No matter how frustrated or exhausted I am or will get in the future....I will keep on. I have to.
There are some people that count on me and always have counted on me to be there for them and I feel a obligation to do what I can for them. I just need a little time to rest, that's all.
Only time will tell, where I'll actually end up but the big question is....Where do YOU see me in the future?
This has been a very stressful year for me.
My Mom's stroke, My Cousin's death, Running after Mia, Dealing with School, Continuing my journey into the Comic Book industry, Adapting to the stress and frustration of getting older and now I've got this constant thought in my mind about my place in the future.
As you can see, this year has been a packed year for me.
I'm SO tired but in my mind, I know that's not an escuse to ignore my duties. My duties as a friend, son, grandson, brother and as a aspiring writer.
If only everyone else could see things the exact same way that I see them, perhaps they'd know just how hard I've been working to make my dreams and hopes become realities.
I'm not trying to be a crybaby here but the truth is, It's hard work trying to do a billion things all at once, especially when few, if not no one gives you any credit for it.
If I eliminate one problem from my list, a new one ALWAYS takes it's place and it's only a few people that seems to understand what I'm talking about, let alone, what I'm going through.
I'm facing problems that not even some adults have to face.
I'm not one to complain but I feel like I just have to vent a little bit. This is my way of venting my frustration. I'm just SO goddamn tired. I'm exhausted and no one understands.
It feels like nobody is listening to me at times.
I could go on and on and on but sometimes it just feels like I'm not getting anywhere or even going anywhere, no matter how much I try to.
I'm trying to go ONE place but everyone is always demanding something from me and it's never good enough....even after they get what they want.
They always want more and more and more and more and more.
It's getting to the point where I don't have much else to give....and that's not good.
I need time to rest but there simply isn't any time to just sit back and relax. I'm always up, doing something.
I'm always in a rush. I always have to be somewhere doing something.
And I just want to sit back and take it slow for a while.
I try to do the best that I can but even when it feels like I've done enough, someone, somewhere ALWAYS wants more from me.
They pick and pick and pick until I have nothing else for them to pick from.
There are just some days, where I don't even want to wake up in the morning.
I'm frustrated, exhausted and simply tired but I'm going to keep on.
I have to keep going on. There are things that I just have to do, not just for myself but for the people that I love and also for the things that I'm hoping to accomplish.
No matter how frustrated or exhausted I am or will get in the future....I will keep on. I have to.
There are some people that count on me and always have counted on me to be there for them and I feel a obligation to do what I can for them. I just need a little time to rest, that's all.
Only time will tell, where I'll actually end up but the big question is....Where do YOU see me in the future?
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