To the ends of the Earth.

"In a bullet-proof vest, With the windows all closed, I'll be doing my best and I'll see you soon."-Chris Martin

I remember once in an interview, Bono stated that my favorite song, "Beautiful Day" was about a man who'd lost everything but still finds joy in what little he has left.

I couldn't really relate to it before but now....Now, I understand it perfectly.

It's hard to understand unless you've been through it but when you loose something very close or meaningful to you, the only thing you have left is anger or gloom.

It's a hard thing to overcome but it's interesting to see, once you look back on it.

I look back on these past few weeks and I feel like I've lost a lot that was really close to me in many ways.

But now, in the aftermath of all that chaos and craziness, I find that I still have few things to still hold close.

1. My best friends.

No matter what has happened or where my life has taken me, I've managed to keep and maintain my friendships with my best friends. They've stuck by me through thick and thin and that means a lot to me.

That's the reason why I'm willing to go to the ends of the earth for each and every one of them.

2. My Writing.

For as long as I could remember, I've always been able to write a story. I have this strange way of observing the world and translating it into my own words as a story. It's what I do. It's in my blood. It's my calling.

The best part of it, is that I can and will always be able to pump a story out of my system. It can never be taken away from me.

3. My family.

Okay, so my girlfriend cheated on me and betrayed me and I've had to go to a new School, not to my liking but my family is still here. Anything I've ever needed, they've been there to help me with it. Big or small.

They're also the only ones I'm willing to go to the ends of the earth for.

That's about it. That's all I still find joy in these days. Being with my friends and family and writing.

Friends, family, writing.

It's turned into a big thing with me.

I (As always) put my friend's and family before myself because they're the only people that I have left in this world. They mean everything to me.

Marlene and Mia....they come and go.

Joe, Kris, Jay, Rafael....they stay through thick and thin, even when things get tough.

All true friends and unique people in their own ways. My best friends for life.

Each one, true to themselves and me to the greatest degree possible. I apprieciate them all to no limit.

When things get tough or times get bad, I've ALWAYS got my best friends. My "counsil," I call it.

True friends aren't things that you come to find on the daily basis but I've found some extraordinary people in my time.

Anything I need, I know I can depend on them for it.

Loyalty is all I ask and the years have filtered out my TRUE friends from the false ones. The tests of time have kept them with me. I'm in it, even passed the end and I feel they're in it with me.

I'm a lucky man to have befriended such extraordinary friends.

My friends ARE my family. My best friends are my brothers.

The story of "Beautiful Day" is simply, well....beautiful.

In my mind, I'm the man in that song right now. "A man who's lost everything but still finds joy in what he still has."

Sure, I'm a loner to the tenth degree but that doesn't mean I'm friend-less.

I'm not a easy person to make a friendship with but in time....anything is possible.

I just think that I'm a pretty good judge of character in this case.

Sometimes, that can be taken advantage of by people like Mia but it doesn't stop me from continuing to be myself and being a friend to those who deserve it.

Loyalty is my code of generosity. Generosity is my code of loyalty.

In my crazy mind, it's a cycle of trust.

But every once in a very rare while, that trust is broken by someone.

The most recent would be Mia.

The way I see it: I'm a good judge of character. My code of honor is as accurate as a computer. BUT! Computers do have glitches....

Mia was just a glitch in the system.

But she was a necessary glitch in order for me to see things in a better light.

She's like a enbodiment of all my flaws but not for a second is she a reflection of myself. It's impossible for me to exsplain so try to figure out what I mean by that.

Ideals, Loved ones, Beliefs and Skills are all I have but I still take joy in them.