History repeats.

"I'm gonna buy this place and see it go, Stand here beside me baby, watch the orange glow."-Chris Martin

I started back at school today....the beginning of another ten months down the drain.

I woke up pretty late but I really don't care anymore.

From walking to the Train station this morning, to writing this blog right now, today has had it's ups and downs so I'm not gonna bitch too much and I'm not gonna make today look like a saint while It's actually a sinner.

This morning, I woke up not as angry or annoyed as I usually would on my first day back to school, I guess it's because I actually felt as if I never left school, in some way or another.

I mean, come on, if you've been following my blogs this past summer then you should know that my life hasn't exactly been a beacon of light in these previous two or three months.

Anyway, on the walk to the Train station this morning, as I walked through the midst and fog of the weather, I got to the point where I didn't even want to be bothered with anything or anybody....alot of this frustration came from what my Grandmother did to me *yesterday. (*Read my previous blog.)

After reaching Hunts Point and still not feeling up to being bothered with the world's bullshit, I had to wait on a line with ten people in front of me just to get a damn two dollar metrocard....perfect timing to piss me off once again.

Once getting onto the Train platform, my train pulls off right before I could get on. A few minutes later, I catch the next Train.

While sitting in my favorite seat in the very last Car, flashback after flashback occured in my mind since I hadn't really taken the six train since last June.

As I finally reach, Westchester Square, the loudest and most aggravating of sighs seemed to come out of me, I guess it was something from my subconscience.

But as I walked to school, late as usual and stopped at the gate in front of my school (The usual rest stop for me.), I saw someone and they REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY pissed me off!!!

Guess who? Can't guess?  MIA!

She didn't even have the decency to say hi to me....after all I've done for her. So from now on, fuck her too.

Oh, I was soooo fucking pissed at this point and to make matters worst, her petty little bitch-of-a man boyfriend was there....finally we had the chance to face off.

The funniest thing was when I called him over, he ran into the school faster than the Flash! (Hopfully Ryan Reynolds gets the part! )

Anyway, I think this shows just how much of a little bitch some people are.

God! I hate that fucking coward.

Anyway, next subject, because I'm starting to get pissed again.

So after I scared that little weasle back into his hole, I just inadvertadly found myself walking away from that wretched "School" all the way to Castle Hill but the most Ironic of things was the walk there.

During that walk, I also found myself walking the same path that I'd walked with Marlene almost three years ago (Sept. 23. 2004) and as a little surprise to myself, I noticed that that walk had symbolized two very important things in my life.

1. It kinda symbolized how I've come full circle back to the same place where I was three years ago.

and

2. It kinda symbolized my life as a whole. You see for me, It's about the journey instead of the destination and this twenty minute walk (In more ways than one.) represented my ongoing journey to destiny in oh, so many ways.

After reaching Castle Hill (More Irony!), I went to my surrogate home.... M.S.127 and sat in the old playground for about a hour or so wondering about how things used to be and all that could have been. (No pun intended, for those of you NIN fans out there.)

It brought back so many memories to me! I sat there on the bench and looked out upon the empty playground (Given the fact that everyone else was still in school.) and I just visualized all of my friends playing around and clowning about but the best memory was when I looked over at the entrance of the park and saw where I'd slipped and fallen on Ice, resulting in a personal mythology between me and my friends. (Stop laughing, Joe. )

As the day went on, I found myself sitting on the famous (Or infamous, depending on your point of view.) bench outside of my buddy, Kris' old apartment building listening to my headphones (U2, Coldplay, NIN, Jimi Hendrix, etc.) as usual and at the same time I also found myself constantly looking at one of the "Green Guys" mow the grass area infront of me.

About two hours later, I found myself in a converstion with Kris' mom, who was passing by and we got into another one of our usual cool conversations for a while (Still sitting on the old bench.) until she left and then I found myself bored since my batteries would soon run out.

Thirty minutes later, I somehow find myself in the movie theatre....boy, now that was fun!

I ended up having one of my own personal movie marathonss, hence I had nothing better to do.

THREE movies in a row!

First, I saw "Rob Zombie's Halloween" for the second time and let's face it, if any of us went through that type of dysfunction, we'd all be fucked up too.

Second, I saw "Shoot em' up"....Clive Owen is the man! Monica Bellucci was sexy as usual too.

Third, I saw "Death Sentence"....This movie rocks!!!!!!!!

Once leaving the theatre, I bought the latest issue of Wizard Magazine and I found myself a bit happy and angry at the same time to learn that my prediction of Peter Parker and Mary Jane's POSSIBLE divorce might just come true!

After the Train ride back home, I catch my mom outside walking around in the park accross the street from my building on her cell phone....it made me sooooo happy to see her up and walking, recovering.

In conclusion, today has revealed alot about me and at the end of the day, It's not so bad, it just needs alot of improvement....interpret that any way you wish.